That was the insult thrown in my face a few days ago. I was having having dinner and happily chugging down my late night coffee until someone walks in and spoiled my evening.

First off, I am a Muslim woman. I do my obligatory five times a day prayers. I recite the Quran and can give an almost good recital of Surah Al-Yasin. I fast during the month of Ramadan, did my Terawih prayers during that month. I have never been rude to my parents, not that I can remember, and a filial child. In short, I am a Muslim Woman.

But I don’t wear the Hijab and sometimes favor the clothes that shows my knees below.

Unfortunately during that evening, I was wearing my comfortable three quarter jeans and t-shirt since it was my off day and so I decided to lay off my normal long pants/jeans while I get comfortable at my mother’s food stall. That day, a customer came to buy food and while the brother Muslim made purchase, he took note of my attire.

In a sarcastic tone, he made a comment that a Muslim woman in his country (he’s a foreigner, mind you) would always wear clothes that cover her bodily parts even her face. Since my mother was wearing the hijab, he made the comment to my mother. At this point my left eyebrow was raised and my mother was giving the sly glance at me but I chose to ignore him.

Then he went on praising about the Muslim in his country which I ceased to listen until he touched the subject on women. He went on saying how docile the women, how they always followed the men’s orders and that women should never be allowed to work and that their place is at home. That will be the best Muslim women role model.

He made a huge mistake in degrading the women in my presence. I am a feminist and I have my dad to be credited for. He made us belief that women can be as good as men and had always given historical facts of the Wives of our Prophet Muhammad as his reference.

I was gritting my teeth when I made the sub-zero comment to him. I told him straight to his face that Prophet Muhammad’s wife, Khadijah is a successful business woman and even financed his struggle to spread Islam.

He was opening his mouth to retort when I slashed him with another comment. What use is wearing a hijab when the wearer herself has indulged in alcohol and has legions of lovers. What use is wearing the hijab when the wearer stabs her friends in the back and make falsehood.

And what good is wearing a hijab when she sports tight body contouring clothes the same as how non-hijab wearing women wears. And how can you confirm that hijab wearing women or even THAT customer does his obligatory prayers without failure?

I have seen many supposed proclaimed Muslim flinging around the pubs, bars and disco, sporting a drink or two and making out illicitly with their partners. I have seen them caught in the act of sexual acts and the media is flamed with those news and sadly, some of them consisted of hijab wearing women.

I know my laws in Islam. I know the prohibited items and acts that is hated by Allah s.w.t. And I am proud to admit that I have never done any of those in my life. Thus, I feel insulted when a person comes up to me and cynically throwing snide remarks about what a bad Muslim I am just because I was not wearing Hijab with the full dress.

I have made my decision in wearing the Hijab. I will wear the Hijab only when I’m ready to leave all my earthly dealings, which includes the desire to wear revealing clothes, to mingle with my friends which includes the opposite sex. I will not shame my religion by wearing the Hijab only to be seen in the hideouts of a concert or dancing with glee on the dance floor with an opposite sex who is not my Mahram.

Have you ever seen an angel before? Can you guarantee that when you die, you are without sins and you will be graced a straight way to heaven? No? If No, then shut up. You are not god. We are just humans and as humans we should always remember that we are scarred with sins and must always seek for HIS forgiveness.

Humans do not and cannot decide the fate of others and whether we are sinned or not. It is HIM who decides all. HE is our Creator, HE is the all Merciful and it is He who is the Judge.

Ending my tirade and stand for all Muslim women who had been discriminated before with my well known icy glare, it was not surprising when the customer clicked his jaw and hastily rushed back home.

Do not EVER insult Muslim women integrity in my presence. I will try to tolerate as much as I can but the moment my fuse is blown, you had better be prepared for a maelstrom.