I’m numb. I can’t think anymore, just numb. I didn’t want to get out of bed today because I know the moment I step out into the real world, everything will come crashing down on me. True to my prediction, everything hits me with a force of a bullet train. But what can I say, that’s reality and I need to face it one way or another.

Everyone is pressured here. Now its not the mood for worries and wallow in negative feelings but to rise up from the dead and to take the bulls by its horn. I’m part of the company directors and I’ve done my fair share of burden and problem solving. Firm decisions need to be done and it has to be done now.

I’ve brought out all my artillery and its time to shoot the ducks. My claws are out and I’m yearning for blood. One of them is that idiot that turn the calm waters to choppy waves. Haiz.. It’s causing me alot of headache at this moment but at least one of the main problems are solved.

Hm.. Calls just came in. Everything is in order now or at least. I didn’t realise I was this stressed up until I felt the urge the vomit. Ugh.. Its been months since I felt this stress. I can’t even work properly. Breath in, breathe out it’s the month of Ramadan; I guess this is the test of faith for me.

As God as my witness, I shall never rely on anyone in my life except my own parents. I’ve forgiven everyone and I accept their decisions. Thank you for acting concern towards me, I really appreciate the false pretense.

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