*Smiles*.. *cracked smile* Ok now that didn’t work properly. Obviously trying to smile during the recent events in my life is tougher than I thought. Somehow I wish things were back before everything happen. Back when rice were still very cheap, fuel prices were affordable and people thinking with their brains instead of their mouth.

It’s a challenge everyday and I am biting every nail and concrete to make sure things doesn’t get complicated. I guess even smarty pants make mistakes and fall on their faces once in a while…

Well things happen for a reason and I have to suck up and fight back.

Currently I am not in the mood to buy gold jewelries. Usually I’d be excited and bouncing when it is time for shopping. But after the recent happenings, I began to tread the waters cautiously. People become fake when it comes to money or anything that has monetary value.The cute angels become horned devils…

So until I get my own cash, I’ll let the gold shine on me.

It’s a disaster, well almost for me. Mr Pimple has decided to grace me with its presence at the most weirdest time. Not only do I have eye bags, migraine, stupid ugly looking pimple is popping out. It’s irritating and it’s Monday! Adding up to my blues… Grr..

Anyone knows the best and cheapest way in how to get rid of acne fast? My concealer would not help much and I am so tempted to just head out without any make up complementing my bedraggled hair. Plus, my cold is not improving!

This is soooooo not my day!!!

I had to cut short my holiday in Singapore to today. It was supposed to be until Monday morning but things came up and we had to be recalled back. Well at least I was able to spend a great evening with my elder sister during her birthday.

Oh yesh, that’s me at my sister’s place at 12.40am. Everyone was going nutsy, topsy and turvy. I love my cute Puss-In-Mah-Boots.

I also wanna apologise to all my friends whom I had made prior arrangements to visit you during raya. Really SOWI!!

I’ve been feeling down under the weather. My throat is lightly sore and my nose is twitching at every available moment. All in all, I have a feeling the cold I was infected from was from the Sassy Elder Sister of mine.

Yesterday was a very, very, very boring day. It was so boring that no amount of playing Oblivion Elder Scrolls could kill the mutinous boredom. I had wanted to go out to Angsana Plaza to walk around but the rainy weather dampened the outing. At night, the boredom syndrome got worse.

With no one online and my social bar down to zero, I forced myself to bed after copious amounts of screaming into my pillow. It was that bad of a Sunday. Really hoped today would be a much better day than yesterday.

Hmm..

Perhaps I am born with a good nature. Perhaps I am just too soft hearted. Years back when I was a teenager, if someone sets to make me angry, disappointed or sad, my mind is dead set in making the culprit the evil overlord. Revenge would be the first thing on my mind and I would do it till all of his/her weakness meet with my ferocious monster.

But now it is totally different. Whatever injustice the person has done to me instead of feeling angry, I’d just smile it off be left with a feeling of emptiness and loneliness. Sure I have my lovely family to support me and luckily on they I can count on.

Others whom I have bothered with caring affection has disappointed me. Why is it always I have to understand them why none bothered to understand me? It’s funny how many times I’ve been made a fool of, I never did learn my lesson.

If being with me as a friend or just having me around is too much of a hassle, then tell me and walk away. I don’t mind, at least I know where I stand. But it just doesn’t happen that way. Don’t make me look and feel I’m the idiot in all the mess. Haizzz…

In the end, I get hurt all over again and the cycle of hurt continues. Perhaps it is better being in isolation than having people who are hypocrites.

It was 8am or so when both dad and I fell off our bike. Of all the places to fall off our bike, it is a corner where we were riding at very slow speed. But then the corner was filled with pebbled stones that were use to make roads. Since the stones were not firmly packed enough, our balance were not there and we got thrown off the bike. Well I got thrown off while my dad was flattened by the bike.

I had panicked on seeing my dad lying flat on the ground and scrambled to pull the bike off him as it was crushing his leg. Luckily his leg was fine and the only injury he had was on his ribs as he fell hard on his ribs.

Thanks to my daily stretching (not on those fitness equipment), I was agile enough and the strain that would normally left a person with strained or twisted ankle or knee didn’t affect me. I had to thank the locals who were having breakfast at the nearby kopitiam as they had helped me carry the bike off my dad and pushed it off to the side. The bike chain was off the track but they easily kicked it in.

Anyway dad is recovering right now and I’m putting off any further rides or deliveries for him.

I’m itching to head out of JB for a good rest. I’ve been thinking of heading to Melaka and do a little bit of shopping or perhaps a few sight seeing. I deserve the rest since it’s been a very long time since I took a good day off. It will be a day trip and via bus. I can’t ride the bike there or I’ll confirm lose my butt somewhere along the road.

I had initially wanted to do some road trip to Kota Tinggi but after some hiccups, I’ve changed my mind. I get irritated everytime I had nicely planned and arranged all of my schedule for the day off and but things doesn’t go as planned.

Sometimes I wonder if I am being too lenient on people that I’m constantly being stepped upon at every second they change their fancy. The irony of it all, is it always end up as if I am the demanding one and the terrible ogre. Grr.. If I had turned into Syikin The Terrible, I’d not be the ogre but I’ll be the very demon that haunts their nightmare.

So they say I’m relentless.. I’m uncooperative but why can’t they understand that I too have a job and a life even though my job seems flexible? I’ve already allocate my free days for them but now change again.. and then change the place of outing and now reduce to a meager hour. Might as well don’t meet up.

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I’ve been very lethargic and sleepy these past few days. My wisedom tooth is acting up on me again and this time it wants to show to the world how it is still growing in my gums. I kept to a boring diet of just porridge and any side dish that doesn’t include hard chewing, eating has been reduced to become a torture.

A lot of things have happened and I am invited to a house opening by an old acquaintance from school this Sunday. I am not sure if I can make it or not but hopefully I can.

My toothache is killing me now. Need to take a nap before I faint from the pain… GRRRR

If I could change the past there are plenty of things that I would with gladness. My heart pains and I get stress every moment something or someone bothers me with nonsense. It is not a good thing to my health as I will get gastric attacks which will result me in vomiting non-stopping.

I don’t like to be bothered by small problems which I, in the first place, do not have any connection to. You got a problem amongst yourself, get out of my sight and settle it amongst yourself. Don’t get me involve, don’t get anyone else involve. The last time I tried to help people like these, I got a spat to my face.

Don’t try playing politics in front of me because I will not listen a word you say. Don’t even try to get others to side with you cause I will make sure I will give you more than an earful if I knew of it.

I had enough of playing nice and smiling my way watching your nonsense. I will not cover your crap anymore and will drag you to the pits of hell if you mess with me the next time.

So shove off and leave me alone!

Finally after long hard days and weeks, the house is silent with no cheruby legs running amok. I love the kids and adore them to the core but having a day all to myself once in a while is heavenly.  No noise and mess to clean up, just me, the bed and heavenly pillow.

Seriously I am dead tired. My brain has not stopped working for a few weeks in a row and last night I almost fell asleep during my accounts discussion with my darling. Amazingly when I tried to fall asleep lastnight, the one most important thing that I needed eludes me, making me a walking zombie this morning.

Plenty of eventful things happened this week and the whole tempest left my head spinning and took a major chunk of my heart out. There were laughters and there were lots of heart pain but that is a scenario I do not want to repeat to anyone.

I did watch Shrek Forever After last Thursday, the first screening of the show. It was fun-tastic and since it was a weekday, the cinema was almost empty. Even though it was almost empty, our roaring laughters made up for the empty seats. I love Puss In Boots since he is soooo cute and managed to be chivalrous even when he had sported a huge pot belly and not to mention manipulative.

The movie really made me realise to appreciate and love the ones whom I still have. It also managed to make me shed a tear or two when Shrek confessed that the best thing he had ever experienced was to fall in love with Fiona all over again. It was truly touching. And yes, this is the movie not to be missed since it is the finale of the whole saga.