Perhaps I am born with a good nature. Perhaps I am just too soft hearted. Years back when I was a teenager, if someone sets to make me angry, disappointed or sad, my mind is dead set in making the culprit the evil overlord. Revenge would be the first thing on my mind and I would do it till all of his/her weakness meet with my ferocious monster.

But now it is totally different. Whatever injustice the person has done to me instead of feeling angry, I’d just smile it off be left with a feeling of emptiness and loneliness. Sure I have my lovely family to support me and luckily on they I can count on.

Others whom I have bothered with caring affection has disappointed me. Why is it always I have to understand them why none bothered to understand me? It’s funny how many times I’ve been made a fool of, I never did learn my lesson.

If being with me as a friend or just having me around is too much of a hassle, then tell me and walk away. I don’t mind, at least I know where I stand. But it just doesn’t happen that way. Don’t make me look and feel I’m the idiot in all the mess. Haizzz…

In the end, I get hurt all over again and the cycle of hurt continues. Perhaps it is better being in isolation than having people who are hypocrites.

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