Woohoo!! It’s Eid Mubarak and I had so much fun on my first day of my Raya Aidlifitri (Eid Mubarak) except during my visit to THAT house.
First of, we went off to Singapore to visit my grandpa. I don’t mind visiting him and exchange stories and news with my Aunt Ana but I hated going to that place ever since that new maid of his told me off when I was there a few months back. I could still that bitter taste of insult she threw at me while I was making merry conversations with my Aunt Ana while she was having dinner. It goes like this…
I’ve not been to that house for a year or so since grandma died and I was excited to head there when I finally got my passport back. Even though I had reached that house at 7pm, I was still very excited and happy to see them again. Being happy and excited I was, I became overly hyper and talked and laughed loudly with my Aunt.
It was Maghrib time but since the atmosphere in the house was so bloody quiet and tense, I tried to live it up by making loud and merry conversations. Unfortunately that new maid didn’t quite fancy my conversation and told me off to shut up while Atuk was praying in the enclosed room of his.
It was highly insulting!!! First of, I was a guest in the house and I haven’t step into it for years. Second I’ve practically lived in that house for years of my life and I know how my grandad was and it was a habit of his to always close the door for prayers. He has never been affected by any noise when he was praying. I know that as a Muslim we have to respect prayers time by keeping a hushed conversation but to ask me to shut up while I was conversing with my Aunt was f@cking insulting.
Thirdly, she has no rights whatsoever to even demand me to shut up. She’s not the owner of the owner but just an employee. I’m the grandchild here, not her. I took care of my Aunt YEARS back before she was even employed. I took care of my grandparents YEARS LONG before she was even recognised.
The barb curses and insult were at the tip of my tongue when she told me off. In respect to my late grandma’s memories I just smiled instead. I was remembered of the times my late grandma always advising and reminding me that it’s OK to back down in a fight especially when faced with a bloody insignificant idiotic simpleton. Her advice was “Let them say and insult you, Let them take all of your sins, Let them take another step closer to hell”.
I had initially wanted to stay longer in the house but after that moment, I waited for my grandad to finish his prayers and took my leave. Even though it was painful to leave him after a short visit, the pain in my heart and insult to my face and dignity was even more painful. It was so painful that the moment I stepped out of the lift, I had burst into tears..
The sweet memories of my time all the while I had created in that house ended that day. There are no more new sweet memories for me to create there. However I will forever cherish the bittersweet memories of my childhood memories I have of my grandparents especially my late grandma. I could just imagine my late grandma nagging and screaming her head off if she were to find out what that idiotic maid did to her guest.
That house is no longer meant for me. That house, is now just an empty vessel that housed my beloved memories.