I’m numb. I can’t think anymore, just numb. I didn’t want to get out of bed today because I know the moment I step out into the real world, everything will come crashing down on me. True to my prediction, everything hits me with a force of a bullet train. But what can I say, that’s reality and I need to face it one way or another.

Everyone is pressured here. Now its not the mood for worries and wallow in negative feelings but to rise up from the dead and to take the bulls by its horn. I’m part of the company directors and I’ve done my fair share of burden and problem solving. Firm decisions need to be done and it has to be done now.

I’ve brought out all my artillery and its time to shoot the ducks. My claws are out and I’m yearning for blood. One of them is that idiot that turn the calm waters to choppy waves. Haiz.. It’s causing me alot of headache at this moment but at least one of the main problems are solved.

Hm.. Calls just came in. Everything is in order now or at least. I didn’t realise I was this stressed up until I felt the urge the vomit. Ugh.. Its been months since I felt this stress. I can’t even work properly. Breath in, breathe out it’s the month of Ramadan; I guess this is the test of faith for me.

As God as my witness, I shall never rely on anyone in my life except my own parents. I’ve forgiven everyone and I accept their decisions. Thank you for acting concern towards me, I really appreciate the false pretense.

Ugh! ChrisFaz you’re sick! I saw the pic he forwarded to me which was about a body of a dead cat. Signs of abuse were clearly seen on its belly as it was slashed through. The picture is not for the faint hearted and its rated PG13. Parental guidance is advised.

Picture courtesy of Stomp SG

Anyway regarding my kittens, I thought there was three kittens but I was wrong. It was four. Unfortunately one died and I’m not sure if it was still birth because everything looks perfectly normal except for the plucked out eyes. I didn’t realise there was another kitten until my male black cat brought it to me. My guts instinct told me that my male cat was responsible in its death.

After all, cats loved to bring its owner their catch of the day, seeking for praises. Unfortunately this time, I was frowning and hissing at my male cat for bringing a carcass of its litter. Animals, they don’t have humanitarian feelings.. *sighs*

Don’t ask me but I’m not going to put my dead kitten’s picture in it, so shoo you sadistic creatures!

I just watched Channel News Asia. Looks to me that the big honchos of commercial collection agencies are in a deep hull. The only solution? Tell that MR Someone to stop creating wars. Money doesn’t come from trees and you got no prove these countries are terrorist infested. Grr…

My cat just gave birth to there little noisy kittens. I don’t mind the feline giving birth but not at my box of switch socket outlets! She made a mess of everything and when I found out her hiding spot, she was growling at me when I moved her to another box. She was so stubborn into moving her kittens back to her birthing box that I had to lock her down and caged her up.

By the way she gave to two orange spotted male kittens and one black spotted male kitten. But I’m not going to keep them. The moment the kittens are a few weeks old, I’m going to give them off to others including the mother herself. Enough of always cleaning after her cat litter. At least my other black cat is smart enough to use the toilet or my neighbour’s lawn (for emergency cases) as his toilet. hehehe…

Its six more days for Hari Raya Aidilifitri and mom is diligently busy at cleaning the whole house as I type. My arthritis problem is no longer that painful since I’m taking Centrum as my living vitamins and nutrients until this problem ends. After eating Centrum A-Z vitamins, I can feel the glaring changes.

My joints no  longer aches badly in the morning and I no longer walk with a terrible limp. Even my fingers are happily typing without pain shooting itself into my system in every letter. Who would have thought the vitamins that I usually eat 4 years ago would work wonders on my poor aching joints. Heheh.. thanks mom for reminding me! Please take note that this is not a paid post by Centrum since I’m writing this purely from my experience, no personal gain is involved by writing this post.

Furthermore during the fasting month, weight conscious people would no longer need to pop in fat burners pills. What’s there to burn since you only eat during the evening and a few hours before dawn?

One more week to Eid Mubarak or Hari Raya Aidilfitri as what the locals would prefer to call it. That means I have exactly 7 days to prepare all the needed preparations for the big day. All the cookies have been baked except for my own batch of Pineapple Tarts.

I still haven’t clean the house yet and looking at all the mess, it needs a real scrub. My arthritis problem is killing me since its mostly throbbing and aching at my ankles, hindering my movements. Yesterday I fell down the stairs, yes down the stairs, because my right ankle didn’t properly function and I was rushing to save my baking cookies. So instead of getting more agile, I feel like a heap of broken bones.

I am still unsure as to who is coming and camping over for the festive so that means, I really need to do some major dusting and pillow checks. Ugh.. this is what I get for being the caretaker of my own parents house that they happen to live in. *snickers*

All servers are stable and ready and those idiots that insist in spamming my websites have been banned, thank god! My hard drive is still working perfectly after that little fiddling I did to stop it from coughing on me. Now I’m filing in for my holidays which is 4days.

Zackire.com and Ratreeintra.com will be off on a holiday from 29th September 2008 to 6th October 2008. Which reminds me, I need to inform all my customers about it also.

Getting my daily dosage for morning news. Next, next, next.. Ah yes.. the Business section. Call me creepy but right now business news is the hottest around especially since the Lehman Bros declared themselves bankrupt last Monday. My dad and I had been expecting one of the financing tycoons to break apart ever since the Federal Bank has issued a subtle Red Alert.

But I never expected Lehman Bros! They are the biggest around and for them to be bankrupt, no wonder all the banks in the world are scrambling to pump in billions of dollars into the Money Market. If they don’t do that, it will be 10 times worst than the last recession. Now everyone is on their toes as which company is going to be next, AIG or Morgan Stanley.

And in this case, I solely put the blame on Bush.

Instead of putting the peoples’ and government money into good use like saving his people from the natural disasters that keep filing into the US or investing it properly, he did a spending spree on the war on Iraq claiming that they had Nuclear Warheads which in later on proved that Iraq was innocent.

As if that wasn’t enough, now he’s showing his claws to Russia and North Korea for so called-ly going against the UN on peace keeping with Georgia and having Nuclear Warheads. I’m not sure if its going against UN policy or his policy. If you ask me, I think he’s purposely picking a fight on everyone and anyone who doesn’t bow to his wishes.

Who ever made them our overlord anyway? Take a look at Malaysia, whenever Malaysian Government have a squabble with Anwar, the US poked their nose into the country’s affairs and trying to preach what they never do. Hello! There are people fat with bribes and dying in poverty in your own backyard! Such hypocrites..

I’m not trying to character assassinate anyone or create any evil feeling or teach any resentment that can lead to riots and destruction. That wasn’t my desire! This whole post is basically my own opinion on the US crumbling stock market. Nothing personal, seriously!

But if anyone still desire to get their house remorseful or do some Online Personal Loans research, be my guest. I’m neutral here. And should you wish to know more of Personal Loan, just click on the link.

Once again, the above is just my personal opinion only. I apologise in advance if any parties are dissatisfied with my views.

Things in Smorty is getting quite heated up since an angry blogger made a big fuss over her hard effort of paid blogging being plagarised into a another Smorty member’s website content. While everyone is dishing out their pitching forks and preparing the bonfire, I think I’ll stick to the sidelines and watch Smorty pass the judgment over the culprit.

Anyway I’d also like to take this opportunity to emphasize that in no way whatsover is anyone allowed to plagarised (aka COPY/ PASTE) any of the content in this website without prior consent and notice. Should you wish to borrow some of my content, I’d appreciate if you blockquote my content with pingbacks and a huge disclaimer note with my website address and name made in honor.

Anyone found guilty of such acts will be getting a nice letter from my lawyer and a love letter from Google informing your website has been banned from its ranking and Google Ads. So watch it!

Furthermore I’d like to stress that I do not like spam. SPAM includes all those enlargement subjects on you-know-what, car loans, insurance, porn related websites, pirated related websites and contents etc.. All spams will be deleted upon received and your IP will be blocked.

It gives me such a headache to every week to maintanence in cleaning the spams, spray some anti-bug codes onto the bugs that is seen flying around and making this website fast in loading.

By the way, Zackire.com and all that liase with them will be doing some maintanence this Saturday (20th September 2008) at 10am (GMT+8.00). It will take an hour or two before everything runs smoothly. Your understanding is much appreciated.

Wow.. Lots of the festive songs are on air! But unfortunately I’m not in the mood for festivities. Say what you like, but I’ve lost all the glorified and excited feeling for the festivities. Life has become very mundane especially since I’m literally stuck at home without anywhere to go and only my parents to talk to. Sure my siblings and my boyfriend calls me once in a while but this isolation is making me go crazy!

Take a look at last night for example, my parent slept early at 9pm and the whole house shut down except me. For 3hrs I was left with just staring at the wall, ceiling, scattering my books around and cleaning them back; I was doing almost everything to keep myself occupied until midnight.

So what if I have a computer and internet to keep me occupied? I’m bored with it, really bored with the machine and ever changing internet since I used it from 9am to 8pm. My eyes are popping from my socket!

Haiz.. I’m really itching to go out! And the idea of going out alone to Tebrau City or City Square or Angsana is very very VERY tempting at this moment. Just like how I used to do a few years back. Shop alone, watch movie alone, eat alone, chill out alone from 10am to 10.30pm. Hahaha..

Everyone of my friends are either busy, busy or tuckered out from work. The only one who’s so free at this moment is my pal in KL. Hmm… perhaps I should take a bus to KL, chill with him and then ciaoz back home for the night. Very tempting………

I think I’m going to give him an sms to check his schedule for tomorrow.

Anyway the other day while I was Googling up for payroll software other than Quickbooks for fun. I was very intrigue to find that there are banks and organisations (Ah Long kot??) that does Payday Loans to small time companies in case they’re short in cash. But since that wasn’t my topic of the day, I skipped the websites and continued on my search for payroll software.

I think I had a little bit too much of coffee and not enough sleep lastnight to be having weird dreams of stubborn horses, gorgeous looking half naked barbarians and shiny-twinky-stars dumped in one episode. The effect of too much caffeine content plus a large dosage of science experiment documentaries doesn’t work well for me during fasting month.

Oh well this is what happen when I stay up late to get the answer to the medical research of the truth behind “Does having sex before a game/event affect the abilities of athletes?”. Obviously it does and for the better according to the blood test result taken by the participant. The amount of testosterone in the blood increased by 20% after a night of sex.

Wow.. I didn’t know that but I do know that research has proven that couples tend to be more relax the next day after a night of sex especially during those hectic and stressed out day at the office. Hehehe… *eyes twinkling evilly* muahaha…

Okok.. enough of the caffeine infected brain cells. It’s 13 more days to Syawal and I’m looking forward to spending some quality time during Eid Mubarak with my loved ones without interruptions and interlogue of work. I want to see my cousins and my grandpa!!!!

Sometimes I wonder why I even bother making all the cookies and cakes for Eid Mubarak when the ones who came over are minimal in number, another words almost to 10 people. Perhaps I should just dump the whole idea of celebrating Eid Mubarak and just get on with life as usual and visiting to only those who are important to me only. It’s really tiring and waste of time going to all those houses that never once step foot in my house.

Haiz… ok, caffeine attack again. I just checked with my local GP, he told me that some patients that had recovered from Chikungunya still face arthritis problems even up to months. Drat! That explains why my ankles feel as if I had them dislocated or sprain everytime I walk after a rest. My ankles hurt!

Mom faces the same problem although its her shoulders and knees that pains her. NO cure to this except paracetamol and vitamin b complex. Ugh… And I’m still moulding like a snake. Stop your incessant giggles brother I can almost hear it as you read this.

Anyway an internet friend of mine has told me that one can always find a best buy at www.buy.com should I need to get anything in the US. But since I’m in South-East Asia, Malaysia, that’s not relevant to me right..

I’m moulding!! Eck! Of all the things to be happening to me, the skin on my hands and the soles of my feet are peeling off. I’m not sure if it’s due to dehydration since I’m fasting or a side effect from the Chikungunya road to recovery. If it’s the usual bits of skin peeling off, I don’t mind. But this involves huge patches.

Let me think. Have I touched any corrosive chemical or powder? Hm.. Not sure.. But as long as it doesn’t pains or irritate me, peel away baby!

Azrin is currently on a sick leave because he now falls in the category of infected victim of Chikungunya. Brother dearie… There is no vaccination for Chikungunya no matter what your crazy doctor tells you. SO don’t try to slither your way through my book of knowledge. I  may be sleepy when you called me last evening, but I sure can remember alot of things when I’m fully awake. Hehehe..

Thus, you ARE infected with Chikungunya, not SARS.. CHOI!! touch wood..

Oh yeah, last evening I was watching the news on Channel News Asia and from what I understand the Singapore Government would be giving Singaporeans their 2nd half of the installment of the Growth Dividends on 1st October. AKA, free money from the Government.

Hooray!!

Extra SGD$200 for me. Yay! Duit Raya from the Government.. Yippee!! I love Singapore!

Singaporeans will receive letters from CPF from 17/09/2008 regarding their their enhanced Growth Dividend allotment.

I can almost imagine my elder brother rubbing his hands in glee and opening a new tab on his FireFox to check the amount he will be receiving when he reads this. hahaha…

Anyway I was going through Tuesday’s paper on their job ads to counter check the job descriptions that I had posted for Fiberglass Workers. Yes, my company is in need of these highly skilled workers urgently. So if there is anyone who is interested, contact me ASAP. Negotiations on the salary and job scope will be done during the interview.

I can’t stop myself from smiling or grinning from ear to ear this whole morning. This is all because of the books that I managed to read yesterday. Oh they are not your usual cup of tea romance novels that demands the heroine to falls head over heels for the hunk and be the submissive and emotionally wrecked character. But the story that I read lastnight is totally the opposite.

I am talking about Mary Janice Davidson wonderful book, Undead & Unwed. I was expecting some heart wrenching story line like Amanda Ashley or Chritine Feehan. I was totally unprepared by the hilarity that the book managed to wrench from me. Sure, there’s a cute handsome hunk with well equipped ehem along with some weird positions and multiple partners, but the way the heroine is portrayed when caught up in the mass of storm was simply hilarious and mind boggling.

The story revolves around this woman who hates her name as she was named after the Queen of England, Elizabeth Taylor. She has a jabber mouth that doesn’t seem to stop and she can really yak her way until her victim runs away or signed himself up in the nearest mental asylum. So anyway the jabber mouth prude 20th century heroine of ours was killed in a freak car accident while she try to help her ungrateful cat on a roadside.

Before anyone knows it (even me) she woke up in a morgue, completely healthy with no brain damage whatsoever and screamed in total anger and horror when she saw herself in the mirror. It’s not the physical damaged that horrified her. Its her makeup, last season’s over-sized dress and ugly pair of pass me down fake leather shoes, courtesy from her beloved evil stepmother.

After failing to trying to kill herself and remain dead for all eternity much to her irritation, she finally took everything in a stride and continued on where she had left. Mainly, getting her hard saved Current Season Prada shoes.

Yes, ladies and gentlemen, this future jabber mouth vainglorious vampire queen is a branded shoe freak. Touch her shoes, and you shall feel the wrath of the undead. No one messes with her shoes… hahaha

Seriously, this book is a must read. I’m not going to type more else I’ll be re-writing the whole story down. (*_*)”

For those who hates from a first point of view story, well this may not be your chocolate but it doesn’t hurt to try….. come on…. you know you want it….. hehehe